Let it Flow

If you ever want someone to share peace with, sit with me.

Sat with myself this morning just to take time to explore my thoughts. Kinda like a check-in with myself. I ask myself questions like,

• What's been on your mind?
• How have you been feeling?
• Has anything been bothering you?
• How have you been feeling?
• How can you feel better?

Then it turns into a conversation with myself because I begin to search myself for the responses...

A lot has been on my mind. Like what?

Life, dedication, commitment, discipline, movement, flexibility, being fluid, being of substance, trust, loyalty, disappointment, heartbreak, love, forgiveness, acceptance, expectations of self, freedom, liberation, kindness, weakness, vulnerability, emotions...

I pause in the thought process because the emotions always pause the internal conversation. Sort of snaps me out of the daze and brings me to... Emotions disturb the flow. Or so I thought. Emotions ARE the flow.

Emotions placed right in front of me? It's just a stumbling block in my path.  Not to stop me but for me to tune in and explore that energy. It is an experience for me to go through so I can continue flowing.

What emotions came up? What word(s) triggered the tears? 

"Freedom, liberation, kindness, weakness, vulnerability, emotions..." Those words sparked me to think about how each word made me feel.

I felt happy to be free.  

Feeling free bought a peace over me that was liberating. 

Feeling liberated made me want to pass it on which made me feel kind.  

Showing kindness made me feel weak because people take advantage of vulnerability.  To sum it up,

I got emotional because I felt defeated.

I felt defeated because I just want to be happy, I want to be free, I want to give love, and I want to receive love without fear of being vulnerable.  I don't want to feel foolish or guilty for operating from a space of love and trust.

I want to be accepted for who I am. 

I don't want to have to wonder if the people I share my absolute best self with, do not believe I am worthy of their best self.  

I don't want to worry about being lied to or cheated of choices that will alter my path... 

That fucked up my thought flow but my mind kept going...  

I don't want to live a manipulated path because everyone will lose in the long run.

Now is about the time where I paused to let that marinate but to my surprise, I'm back flowing with thoughts...

Do you feel your path has been manipulated? No.  

However, I was not given the absolute truth before making a major life decision so while I do not believe that my path was altered, I do believe that the one who decided not to trust me with the truth altered theirs. 

Wow. Deep right?  That stumped me. 

Once again I snapped out of it though... 

The ones that held on to me, somehow altered their own path?! That made me feel worried because I know that just because my path is confirmed and correct that theirs may not be. There will always be a glitch in the energy, the natural flow.

This frightens me because I understand flow. Is it possible that my purpose on their path is not be of service in the position that they decided I should serve in? 

What if "they" didn't pick the right life partner?  

Just because I know I did, does not mean they did because they altered the rules, I did not.  My decisions were made in the absence of fear.  They interrupted the flow.  

This is not just about sexual relationships either but goes for friendships, family-ships, co-worker-ships, business partnerships, etc.  This applies to ALL relationships that last your lifetime.

What if I was supposed to just be someone on their journey but not IN the journey with them? 

What if the position I play is not the correct position on their journey and it will shift and because I am aware, I will stay as a part of their journey because I fully understand that position and titles could never change that I remain attached to those I detach from.

my only purpose - my true path, is to be a witness on the path of their ever changing lives? What if...

Is that why people are disloyal or play for keeps? 

I don't think they understand the flow... Being lied to, cheated on, talked about, plotted on, disrespected, and all the other emotional violations humans do to one another don't hurt the same once you've found your way.  

You understand the lesson and just continue to check-in with yourself. 

The universe will not fail you, the universe will not fail me. 

If at anytime our paths should shift, the laws of nature will set into play actions from those that you are on your journey with; that will change your feelings.  

When your emotions are triggered, that is the alarm to stop and address the stumbling block on your path. 

It's just an alert to shift something inside you so you can continue to correctly flow on your path.

So, I am exactly where I should be, witnessing where I am divinely placed & vowed to be. 

I flow effortlessly and accept any changes that may come on my journey. 

Just imagine, if you did the same; how fluid all of our lives would be?