What I do for a living is an extension of who I am so it's easy to do it, even when I don't feel like doing it.
I hadn't done my current job in over 10 years so I am feeling as if I get a do over on life - in more ways than one.
Like then, I enjoyed the work but did not believe that the fruit matched the labor and I have not enjoyed any work as much as I naturally enjoy the work I do now.
Had I understood the power I had in enjoying what I was doing, I would have understood how to leverage my passion. Yes, someone can always do it cheaper but can they do it with gratitude to be doing it?
I still feel as if I am not making the money I should be making considering my experience and enthusiasm to get the job done but I have also not asserted that I deserve more because I can add more value.
I also run from the expectation of providing more service.
Why be of partial service?
If I truly love what I do and believe that I can add an invaluable experience to those I serve, why hold back that energy?
How is holding myself back in that area spilling over to other areas of my life?
It all comes back to making a decision... I have to make the decisions that will assist me in living a life of freedom.
The life that I feel called to live and what most believe is the life they desire; I believe what I desire is another indication of where I should be headed.
- I desire a healthy, fully functional, flexible body.
- I desire a clear and sound mind to lead and use my body to carry out the choices I've made.
- I desire for those decisions to provide me with the lifestyle my spirit feels at ease recharging in.
- I desire the ability and the feeling of honor to show up and get the work done.
- I desire to add value to the world, my corner of it anyway...
- I desire to have a positive human experience.
Accepting all phases of this experience and making the best decisions to get me out of those experiences or deeper into them. Accepting that this much, I can control.
Another thing I desire is community.
The people I share this life with? I want them to feel called to spend it with me. I think I love freely so it's not about keeping people, it's about the ones who feel called to stay. I know those are the people that I will be of service to, forever. Those are my soul mates and the magic happens when we all are aware that we are not connected by chance. Honoring that energy is the only way we can be successful as a collective.
To be of service where I am called, be of service in the way that I desire to serve; that's what I desire.
I want to be proud of the life I was blessed with. Proud of what I did with all the time I had while I was here.
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